i am trying to remember what i did yesterday and it only resemblers a blur. i feel as if most of the days here blur. trying to recollect... woke up late, spent the day in class, then to IES to go on the internet. Hannah and i went to a swanky hotel in el Centro because we thought there would be a feminine literary performance... not this thursday. drank some mate on my balcony and watched the traffic as the sun was just going down. ate dinner with my host mother and we actually had a semi good conversation.. i´m realizing maybe there are things that i can learn from her. she is an outgoing woman, very loud. i´m not. perhaps she is challenging me... and i must accept this challenge to be a little louder and prouder if i want to actually enjoy this living environment. later i had a few cervezas at a friends apt. as we planned our spring break trip up to nothern argentina. Que Bárbaro!
i am definitely encountering life lessons here.. some on solitud and the means i have to change myself here. simply feeling alone here is hopefully enough to help me utilize what i do and do not want to feel, and how to change. i am learning to relax, little by little... big lesson for me. mostly i am trying not to miss the wonderful people and good times from iowa city. i guess maybe i´m constantly wishing i was somewhere else. always moving.. wanting to move... travelling.. like the kokopelli... the hunchedback flute playing traveller... bringing fertility to the villages... so as i travel i should bring fertility with me. i am learning the importance of relationships in my life... and to value being a giving person... working on this every day... the water is still in buenos aires.
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